Loss of Words In a Place I Can't See

 I can't describe the place I am in at this time.  I've had so many unexpected and strange experiences happen to me over the last couple of years . These experiences have stirred up a host of questions in my mind. The Lord has given me glimpses of things pertaining to my life. He has opened  the windows of Heaven in miraculous ways but I don't know what it all means or how it will all come together.

I feel like I'm in the dark. It's not the kind of dark that comes from wrong doing or the influence of the adversary.   No, it's not anything like that.  I know the Lord is with me but I just can't see a thing right now and it's hard to make sense of much when you can't see.

I went to a funeral today for a wonderful friend, Lloyd Baker. He was a good man who touched the lives of so many.  He had been quoted as saying, "When I go to heaven, I'm going to find the line that says, 'If you have questions, stand here.'"

I think I'll join my friend in that line.  I have so many to ask... not doctrinal questions but directional. Was the whole purpose of these particular things just to test me?  Was it all solely given for me to prove what I would do? It's a puzzle!

 I can't help but think the Lord won't reveal or answer them until my life is over.  I am sure then, I'll finally be able to see the bigger picture.

-Alicia

I Will Rest In You - Mindy Gledhill

Lord I´m in the dark

Seems to me the line

is dead when I come calling

No one there, the sky is falling

Lord I need to know

My mind is playing games again

You´re right where you have always been

Take me back to you

The place that I once knew

As a little child

Constantly the eyes of

God watched over me

Oh, I want to be

In the place that I once knew

As a little child

Fall into the bed of faith

prepared for me

I will rest in you

I wiil rest in you

I will rest in you

Tell me I´m a fool

Tell me that you love

me for the fool I am

And comfort me

like only you can

Tell me there´s a place

Where I can feel your breath

Like sweet caresses

on my face again

Take me back to you

the place that I once knew

As a little child

Constantly the eyes of

God watched over me

Oh, I want to be

In the place that I once knew

As a little child

Fall into the bed of faith

prepared for me

I will rest in you

I will rest in you

Í will rest in you